- is this weird ? &nd why is it lke this ?

theres this guy who ibeen talkin too for almost two yrs &nd soo now we hav gotten a whole lot closer...but when im not with him &nd iget "in thee mood" for sex &nd im talkin to him ' we will talk about it &nd we hav said that both of us dont want to be in a relationship at this time but we still "want" eafh other &nd we can have sex together ' with noo strings attached until someone feels sumthin different. but when we're together &nd we are close to havin sex ' idont never go thru with it...its lke iwant to &nd iwant him but when it comes to that time ' iback down...why is that ? isnt that very weird ?